MY 2 HOMES

I used to take advantage of what I now call home Playing carefree with my toys Laughing with my brother Playing carefree with my toys used to think nothing would ever change Always happy as if there was sunshine in my pocket Always told my true emotions Never lying to my parents But then my mom came to me as we were about to leave I panicked, thought I was in trouble She told me something that made me want to cry We were moving, leaving the home I loved, or so I thought I asked where we were going They responded with something that broke my heart My dad wasn't coming with us I walked out the door in tears It felt like the sky was crying with me I got in the car and cried silently cried 1 million tears that night I thought I’d never see any of my friends again never told my true feelings Always lied, said I'm fine Never truly felt happy It felt like I was carrying a whole person on my back But no one could see how much I was drowning Because I wore a mask that hid my pain I smiled through it Even though it hurt It felt like I couldn't smile anymore Would I ever be happy aging I can’t do this I can’t do this I can’t always be sad Its fine No one needs to know I can act happy I was drowning But I smiled through it I knew I was drowning But no one else did I didn’t know what to do But then I laughed And realized what home really means It isn't just a structure It’s the warmth of laughter and memories The smell of apple cinnamon candles. My family is home